Go after her. Fuck, don’t sit there and wait for her to call, go after her because that’s what you should do if you love someone, don’t wait for them to give you a sign cause it might never come, don’t let people happen to you, don’t let me happen to you, or her, she’s not a fucking television show or tornado. There are people I might have loved had they gotten on the airplane or run down the street after me or called me up drunk at four in the morning because they need to tell me right now and because they cannot regret this and I always thought I’d be the only one doing crazy things for people who would never give enough of a fuck to do it back or to act like idiots or be entirely vulnerable and honest and making someone fall in love with you is easy and flying 3000 miles on four days notice because you can’t just sit there and do nothing and breathe into telephones is not everyone’s idea of love but it is the way I can recognize it because that is what I do. Go scream it and be with her in meaningful ways because that is beautiful and that is generous and that is what loving someone is, that is raw and that is unguarded, and that is all that is worth anything, really.
I am lonely, yet not everybody will do. I don’t know why, some people fill the gaps and others emphasize my loneliness. In reality those who satisfy me are those who simply allow me to live with my idea of them.
Same Mistakes - The Echo Friendly
The worst feeling ever is not knowing whether you should wait or give up.
The price of anything is the amount of life you exchange for it.
There’s nothing here that you’ll miss
I can guarantee you this is a cloud of smoke
Trying to occupy space
What a fucking joke
I waited for a bus to separate the both of us
And take me off far away from you
Cause my feelings never change a bit,
I always feel like shit
I don’t know why I guess that I just do
You once talked to me about love
And you painted pictures of
A never-neverland and I could have gone to that place
But I didn’t understand
I didn’t understand
Collection of things that inspire a former comparative literature student finding a life outside of books